Monday, October 3, 2011

haiku retrospective ccxxxi

I no longer experience the wonders of Christmas; I engineer them.

My childhood Christmases were big, fancy events with lots of relatives, lots of big meals, lots of alcohol, and a feeding frenzy under the tree.

dancing with excitement 
the tinkle of broken glass 
from the fallen tree 

Yes, one year, I knocked the Christmas tree over in my excitement. I managed to stand it back up by myself and never, ever told my parents.

rich foods 
rich colors 
playing with my fork 
while i wait for the adults 
to finish their coffee 
so we can open our presents 

christmas morning 
only my grandfather awake 
when we tiptoe downstairs 

christmas afternoon 
the men play 
with our new train set 

christmas evening 
playing aggravation 
with a side of pie 

Times of transition.

Most of the men in my family of origin have problems with alcohol and substance abuse. The women work their fingers to the bone and throw their annual holiday tantrums. I want something simpler, more meaningful. I want to spend my holidays with my children rather than in the kitchen.

We usually have Christmas at home, just us. We open presents slowly, over Christmas Eve day, and take time to enjoy each one. We sing together, and read special stories together. Everyone hangs a stocking (even us parents).

christmas tree hunt 
our youngest child finds 
the perfect pine 

nat king cole's carols 
the children hang ornaments 
any way they want 

december 23rd 
giggles, scampers, slamming doors 
another awkward parcel underneath the tree 

christmas eve 
a cup of cocoa 
by the fire 

christmas morning 
chocolate on his face 
before breakfast 

christmas night 
fifteen-two, fifteen-four, 
and a double run for twelve 

 3 January 2003

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